It's sad that so much time has been wasted in my relationship with my husband because of our insecurities to stand up for what we wanted, felt and believed. So with five years under my belt and half of a lifetime loving the same person in some degree of the meaning. I am putting an end to wasting time worrying about what anyone thinks about our marriage or relationship that is not in our marriage or relationship. I spent so much time hating myself because I wasn't what fit into this mold of what was pretty, acceptable and wanted by people that have nothing to do with the love my husband and I feel for each other. I spent so much time hating myself because others showed so much hatred towards me, that it started to change the person that my husband fell in love with. I wasted so much time trying to please others that I forgot to please myself. Every major argument my husband and I have ever had during our relationship has never been about us it's always been about others. That's saying something. We have spent so much time worried about why it wouldn't work, why it wasn't the right time, why it might be uncomfortable, why they my not like it, why the bad things are the way they are, why we can't change other people and so much more wasted time. That we completely forgot about all the time that we had backing us telling us why we are right for each other. Why God never let us lose touch. Why we always came back to each other. Why we are friends. What we have. Why we work. Why we are so strong as a couple.
We aren't going to waste another year, month, day or hour trying to make others accept, approve or be happy about our marriage. About our life together. About our commitment to each other. It's not their time to have it's ours. So this is me saying "F" off! Guess what it's pretty damn obvious neither of us are going to spend any more time wasted on what you think. So either join in on this amazing life we have created or get the hell outta the way and stop wasting OUR damn time. Thanks!
16 years as friends, no matter where life took us we always stayed in contact!
13 years 3 months 8/9 days started our first tradition of, every new years eve/day with a phone call, email, message, text, hug or kiss. Never missed one New Years!
13 years 4 months 13 days since our official "first date" (according to you! I had no idea it was an actual date!)
10 years since the first "I love you - I love you too" that seemed and felt like it was more than just friends. 10 years 5 months and 1 day to be exact.
9 years since we made our pact that if we weren't married by 30 we would marry each other! (Written on a napkin at sideline sports bar.)
6 years 1 month 2 days since we made it officially official.
5 years since we said I DO
Thanks for being my best friend for over half our lives. Couldn't imagine life without you and glad I don't have to.
Here's to infinity with you! Love you!
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