No more wasted time. Anniversary edition

The truth about my love story time frame.

 It's sad that so much time has been wasted in my relationship with my husband because of our insecurities to stand up for what we wanted, felt and believed. So with five years under my belt and half of a lifetime loving the same person in some degree of the meaning. I am putting an end to wasting time worrying about what anyone thinks about our marriage or relationship that is not in our marriage or relationship. I spent so much time hating myself because I wasn't what fit into this mold of what was pretty, acceptable and wanted by people that have nothing to do with the love my husband and I feel for each other. I spent so much time hating myself because others showed so much hatred towards me, that it started to change the person that my husband fell in love with. I wasted so much time trying to please others that I forgot to please myself. Every major argument my husband and I have ever had during our relationship has never been about us it's always been about others. That's saying something. We have spent so much time worried about why it wouldn't work, why it wasn't the right time, why it might be uncomfortable, why they my not like it, why the bad things are the way they are, why we can't change other people and so much more wasted time. That we completely forgot about all the time that we had backing us telling us why we are right for each other. Why God never let us lose touch. Why we always came back to each other. Why we are friends. What we have. Why we work. Why we are so strong as a couple. 

We aren't going to waste another year, month, day or hour trying to make others accept, approve or be happy about our marriage. About our life together. About our commitment to each other. It's not their time to have it's ours. So this is me saying "F" off! Guess what it's pretty damn obvious neither of us are going to spend any more time wasted on what you think. So either join in on this amazing life we have created or get the hell outta the way and stop wasting OUR damn time. Thanks!

16 years as friends, no matter where life took us we always stayed in contact! 

13 years 3 months 8/9 days started our first tradition of, every new years eve/day with a phone call, email, message, text, hug or kiss. Never missed one New Years!

13 years 4 months 13 days since our official "first date" (according to you! I had no idea it was an actual date!)

10 years since the first "I love you - I love you too" that seemed and felt like it was more than just friends. 10 years 5 months and 1 day to be exact.

9 years since we made our pact that if we weren't married by 30 we would marry each other! (Written on a napkin at sideline sports bar.)

6 years 1 month 2 days since we made it officially official.

5 years since we said I DO

Thanks for being my best friend for over half our lives. Couldn't imagine life without you and glad I don't have to. 

Here's to infinity with you! Love you! 

Day 18 of 30

So I'm doing measurements on day one, day eight, day eighteen and day 30 today is the end of day 18! Measurements are in... Down another 7.5 total body inches and another 2 pounds! Making a total loss of 44.5 total body inches lost and 11 non-fluctuating pounds gone in 18 days! Some measurements went up which didn't bother me because I could tell it was muscle building and the pounds well I'm just learning how this should all really work thanks to good friends and you guys. So hopefully day 30 will be even better! But if not I'm ok with the way I am feeling and these results so far! It's all pretty awesome and amazing!

Day 8 of 30

It's working! It's working! It's working! I've lost 6 pounds and 37 total inches from all over my body in 8 days! I'm in love with how I'm feeling, the energy, the nutrition, the overall amazing health I'm feeling! I honestly can not believe this! Yay! 

Day 4 of my 30

IT IS WORKING!! I can not believe that a product/lifestyle change is working this quickly! Amazed, energized and excited!

First of 30

Ok so I am starting a 30 day "diet" program. Today is the first day and it has been pretty hard to be honest. So I thought I would blog something to keep me accountable. Hoping to see results at the end of my 30 days. We shall see

I want to blog!

I want to blog! I want to blog! I want to blog! But I feel like there are all these rules. Like there is this right and wrong way to do it. I want to join in on all of these fun lists of things to blog about or blog groups but I feel like because I don't blog like the others, my "say" wont be good enough. Or that I am being a copy cat in some way. I know I'm never going to have more than a hand full of "followers" but I feel like I REALLY have things I want to say. Things I think a TON of people can relate to. And hell I can be pretty funny too! I want to just blog as if this were my diary. Like I'm just telling a story of these random things that come into my head or this random life I seem to be living. I want to just be me just for a little while, right here, right here in this little speck of cyber world. I can say exactly how I'm feeling and not feel guarded or feel like I will be now EVERYONE hates me because I've gone and opened my big mouth again! Lol but again is that ok? Can you do all those things and call it a blog? I had this fantastic post about "the real Father's Day" going and I put it into drafts because I don't want to offend anyone. I didn't say anything rude or anything I was just giving props to single moms etc. but there's this itch that someone somewhere is going to have a problem with what I have to say. I also don't want to use proper punctuation and grammar and all of the correct spacing! i want to write one big run on sentence if I feel like it! I get to this dead end every time I start blogging. IS IT OK TO WRITE THIS? I really just want to blog without all the extra that goes with it. Ugh! 

Facebook post I wrote last week. Goes along with tonight's post

Keshia Porcincula

Jun 7 at 10:43pm · 

As I lay in bed at 10:30 on a friday night I am thinking WOW The definition of a nearly summer weekend night has evolved so much for me over the years... High school/teen years: weekends meant best friends, sleep overs, junk food, house parties, Denny's, "the spot" and long drives getting "lost"

College/early twenties: Weekends meant: Canada, dorm parties on high street, house parties, driving home to party with best friends, getting off work to your best friend picking you up and driving over the mountains to camp for the weekend, clubbing, parties, parties and more parties. 

Late twenties/coupled up: weekends meant dive bar hoping, doing whatever the two of you wanted, staying up SLEEPING IN and being free for a couple days. 

Thirties/wife/motherhood: weekends mean: keeping to the schedule, waking up earlier than you want, cuddles, playing all day, outside adventures, seeing the world all over again, learning something new, laughing, smiling from the inside out, living a life you created with little people you created.

This new weekend definition isn't what technically sounds like fun, it's not freeing, it's not crazy, it's not MY own, there's no me time. BUT I wouldn't change the new weekends for anything!